Well, had the visit for the kids.  Day 1, went to an amusment park.  I get child support from him sparatically, he is currently going to court for not contempt.  Not paying and not showing up.  Anyhow, he paid for everything so that was good.  I basically ignored him the whole time and just interacted with the kids.  Was not a bad day.

2 hours after we get dropped off, I get a text that he is staying at a hotel near by and wanted to know if I wanted to "hang out".  I had very mixed feelings about this.  1- He has ignored me for 3 weeks with the exception of the stupid song messages, 2- I needed to talk to him without the kids because I was going to tell him I was filing for divorce, 3- I kind of wanted an explination of WHY he just stopped talking to me, but then I really did not want one because then I always know it is due to the BP which he does nothing about.  Anyhow, I ended up going.

So I had mentioned in an earlier post that he had been getting upset with me for things that were not really my fault.  The kids and I went on a trip to Florida to visit my dad, and had made plans for this back in Feb or March, well, turned out I flew home on Fathers day, the kids stayed another 2 weeks.  So while I am waiting to fly out, he calls me and tells me I will probably need to uber to his place from the airport because he had been drinking already (he had my car for the week I was gone and was going to pick me up at the airport), and there was money in my glove box and keys in his mailbox.  It was 1pm when he is telling me this.  Whatever, fast forward, I did that, he was still up so I went into his apartment, and he starts telling me how he is really upset that I planned this trip for them to not be there on Fathers day.  WTH!  I told him that he knew about this for months and just because he realized it now is not a reason to be upset at me.  And he has been working 6 days a week, so I asked if the kids would have been there would he really have taken off on Saturday to come and spend Fathers Day weekend with the kids, probably not.  He agreed but said that he still felt that way.  Then apparently he had an accident where he was riding his bike and someone opened a car door.  Hit the door going pretty fast, hurt his hip, shoulder, knee, broke his phone, and had to be off of work for 10 days.  So that put him into kind of a funk.  That he said he did not tell me because he knew that I would want to come and try to help him and he was depressed and so there is 10 days of  the 3 weeks.  Then as I already know, he feels bad that he has done these things and bla, bla, bla.

I had needed to talk to him to let him know I was filing for divorce.  I would do legal separation, but again due to his unmanaged bp, he does not handle his emotions the best and it affects me alot and our relationship.  As soon as I said divorce, he told me he thought he was going to be sick and asked me to leave.  I said I was not and we were talking things through.  So after it is all said and done, he said he will go see someone because he does not want to get a divorce.  I am still filing for separation as there are things I need to do that we can not  be married living separate.  But I feel somewhat hopeful.  He has concerns with me too, so even though I deal with his bp, I told him I would check into seeing someone about my anxiety issues from dealing with him and his issues for so long.  So we seem to be putting things back in the right direction.  Hopefully...