Family & Friends of Bipolar Support Group
This community is dedicated to parents, siblings, grandparents, other relatives and friends of someone who is Bipolar. The purpose of this community is to help families and friends develop greater patience and understanding, as well as maintain a positive, caring relationships with those diagnosed as Bipolar.
I don't even know how to start the story is way to long.. but from reading the posts here.. I am sure you all can relate someday's..
my bipolar husband was diagnosed about 10 years ago now.. but doesn't help himself.. (that's my job)
any I have been going through my own issues physically my health has been a down ward slide for the past 5 years... more to that story but this is the short form..
So needless to say our bedroom life has been hit as well.. So I have found out somethings that he has a secret online email site and I believe he has been cheating .. But I don't have full proof yet..
last night though I just broke and started crying at like midnight... and he asked me what was wrong I couldn't tell him I found all this shit on his computer cause if I do he will delete it and I will not be able to have that closure.. if that makes sense.. which it might not.. i am so confused on what to do.. any way the mess gets worse..
So as I am crying and not being fully honest he says " we should kill ourselves together" like a packed.. WTF?????? ok missing part of the story I am in a wheelchair.. I have enough of my own mental uphill climbs and I really don't agree with suicide.. I went through my parents first my mom when I was 11 asked my brother to shoot her.. yeah.. she has MS and was having a really bad MS attack and she begged begged him to shoot her .. The damage I watch for him.. he just left the house that day and didn't come back until night .. Then when I was 16 I walked (prior to my accident) into our house and my dad and mom had just seperated and my dad had a shot gun in his mouth and his toe on the trigger I turned around and left and went drinking.. I don't have compassion for suicide.. you give up if you want.. you throw in the towel.. I get it on cancer or an illness you are not going to come out of.. I agree with that .. I think people who are just suffering from physical illness they are going to die from should have that right.. continue with pain or go see the doctor..
But lets kill ourselves.. is this bipolar or am I dealing with a completely different animal.. Suicide pack.. I don't even know how to properly digest this one.. I need help with this.. How do I respond.. I was angry last night I am hurting and need to be able to talk to my spouse which I can't and when I am hurting hims remedy is death.. ummmmm any help.. please help me understand..
my bipolar husband was diagnosed about 10 years ago now.. but doesn't help himself.. (that's my job)
any I have been going through my own issues physically my health has been a down ward slide for the past 5 years... more to that story but this is the short form..
So needless to say our bedroom life has been hit as well.. So I have found out somethings that he has a secret online email site and I believe he has been cheating .. But I don't have full proof yet..
last night though I just broke and started crying at like midnight... and he asked me what was wrong I couldn't tell him I found all this shit on his computer cause if I do he will delete it and I will not be able to have that closure.. if that makes sense.. which it might not.. i am so confused on what to do.. any way the mess gets worse..
So as I am crying and not being fully honest he says " we should kill ourselves together" like a packed.. WTF?????? ok missing part of the story I am in a wheelchair.. I have enough of my own mental uphill climbs and I really don't agree with suicide.. I went through my parents first my mom when I was 11 asked my brother to shoot her.. yeah.. she has MS and was having a really bad MS attack and she begged begged him to shoot her .. The damage I watch for him.. he just left the house that day and didn't come back until night .. Then when I was 16 I walked (prior to my accident) into our house and my dad and mom had just seperated and my dad had a shot gun in his mouth and his toe on the trigger I turned around and left and went drinking.. I don't have compassion for suicide.. you give up if you want.. you throw in the towel.. I get it on cancer or an illness you are not going to come out of.. I agree with that .. I think people who are just suffering from physical illness they are going to die from should have that right.. continue with pain or go see the doctor..
But lets kill ourselves.. is this bipolar or am I dealing with a completely different animal.. Suicide pack.. I don't even know how to properly digest this one.. I need help with this.. How do I respond.. I was angry last night I am hurting and need to be able to talk to my spouse which I can't and when I am hurting hims remedy is death.. ummmmm any help.. please help me understand..
I'm sorry this is happening to you and I hope you'll find a way to sort it all out. Wish you the best!
I am still seeing how far this online shit is going..
But it is so confusing I just haven't educated myself enough on all his issues.. I don't hate him.. I get that it's everything he is dealing with mentally.. I just didn't take time to really educate myself.. I thought I knew what was going on.. but I never really did..