Hi everyone.

I stumbled on this group tonight as I'm finally truly coming to terms with the fact that my brother in law, who's been around my entire life, has sexually exploited two children in the past three years. He was arrested earlier this year, and I didn't find out until recently. My sister (his wife) told me that he was arrested on child pornography possession, but that that was committed by a roommate who has since moved out. Being who I am, I looked up all records of his case, and this runs much deeper than that.

He and his twin brother have been pursuing sexual relationships with girls under the age of 13 for multiple years, and have made visits to some to engage in sexual intercourse. 

I am horribly distraught that this man, whom I've looked up to my entire life, who I've considered a trusted confidant, actually has these urges, and acts on them. Knowing that I have been around him at the age of the girls he has been attracted to makes my skin crawl. I cannot see how I still love him, but I think I still do. He's been my brother for as long as I can remember. Looking back, I can see times where maybe his treatment of me was not appropriate, but there is so much more time when he was a great brother. After seeing the evidence the police have gathered I have no doubt in my mind that he and his brother committed these terrible acts. I have stopped taking his phone calls from prison, and I have stopped asking about him when speaking to my sister. I cannot fathom what she's thinking right now, or if she's accepting the evidence the police have shown her. 

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to handle a situation like this. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel toward him and I don't know what is going to happen. None of my friends understand. My family doesn't want to talk about it. I need to process this. I don't have anyone to help me process this. Please help me. How did you process your situations? Thank you.