I guess I should start by giving you a little bit of a background without saying too much, considering I'd prefer to be left anonymous. My name is D. I'm twenty years old. My younger brother, G, is a registered sex offender. He will be 19 years old later this year.

A few years back, he was convicted of molesting a six year old boy. After being put on probation, he went to live with my dad. Long story short, my dad isn't the kind of man or father he should be. I despise him with every ounce of my being, and that's only gotten worse over the years. Well, when my brother went to live with him, things only got worse. My brother was told to be supervised everywhere that he went. My dad doesn't really care to do that part of his parenting, or any type of parenting for that matter. My brother didn't even have his own room. He slept in the dining room, where he had full access to every room in the house. My step-mother has three kids, the oldest is a girl, A, and two younger boys, B and D. My brother had consensual anal sex with A, the thirteen year old girl. He also molested the oldest of the two boys, B. He was charged and convicted for molesting B, but wasn't charged for A considering it was with her consent. He spent a little over a year in a juvenile center in Texas. All of this happened between within the last two to five years (the first incident being the six year old when my brother was about 13-14, and the last with B being about 2-3 years ago).

Now, he's obviously served his time and he's doing much better. He hasn't gotten into any kind of trouble since he's been out, but I still can't get over all that has happened. My mother received all of his paperwork when he finally got out of the halfway house. Reading through it, we learned exactly what he was charged with, and also learned the full details of his crimes. The things that I read -- I will never be able to forget. It feels like it's all so new because I've finally learned exactly what he did to those children.

I have an 18 month old son of my own. Knowing the things that he did break my heart for two reasons -- one, I couldn't even imagine what I would do if someone had done those things to my son; two, that's my baby brother that did those things. I feel as though I don't even know who he is anymore, or if I ever did.

One thing that we learned a few years back is that my brother was sexually molested. When he was younger and lived with my dad, my dad was dating a woman named Gw who had a son named J. Apparently, J had been sexually molesting my brother. J was my age, so maybe a year older than my brother. It all seems to make sense because my brother started failing school, acting out, and even took a knife to school around that time. My brother hasn't been the same since then.

I'm so afraid that G will never go back to being my brother. It kills me knowing that I can't do anything for him like I wish I could. I want to help him more than anything in this world! My brother needs help, and I just don't know what to do. He's never opened up to me about what happened to him, or what he did to those children.

I know that I'm just rambling, but I am so lost. Is there any way that I can help my brother? How can I tell if he was just a "curious teenager" or if he truly has "urges" for little boys? If it is urges and an attraction to young boys, is there a way to get him help so that urge goes away? Maybe I'm just thinking unrealistically, but that's my baby brother. I want to help him any way that I can. Any help, advice, and support is greatly appreciated right now. Thank you so much for even reading this.

I'm so glad that I found this forum. I don't talk to anyone about this because I haven't found anyone who understands. That's why I'm really hoping to meet others here who know and understand what I'm going through. My mom is having a really hard time dealing with a lot of this as well. So, again, thank you all so much!