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Currently we wait... A four page letter from my therapist, a fifteen page report from the sex offender tester (yes I "passed") and finally a rather poignant four page letter from my wife. So moving in fact that Jason said it brought a few of his staff to tears. She's so good that even Jason said I was lucky to have her in my corner. Despite all this I believe in Thursday morning we will get a phone call still offering a plea with prison time which for the sake of my wife who is disabled and terminally ill is off the table.
I sit here this morning drinking my coffee and look at the business that we grew in five years time wondering if it will all be for nought especially after just landing a rather large contract. Will my 18 years of care be for nought and she'll die alone, under a crushing debt, with no help for her disability and pain, lonely, tired and one foot out in the street almost homeless.
For as strong as I've been depression has slowly chiseled it's way in like a slow leak eroding a foundation. My mind often travels to dark places and suicide for as stupid of a thought it is often creeps in.
I sit here this morning drinking my coffee and look at the business that we grew in five years time wondering if it will all be for nought especially after just landing a rather large contract. Will my 18 years of care be for nought and she'll die alone, under a crushing debt, with no help for her disability and pain, lonely, tired and one foot out in the street almost homeless.
For as strong as I've been depression has slowly chiseled it's way in like a slow leak eroding a foundation. My mind often travels to dark places and suicide for as stupid of a thought it is often creeps in.
remember that we all are dealing with the darkness. some on the inside doing time, some on the outside doing time and then there are those who do the time waiting.
each one of us has a very small light that at times, may flicker and dim. but that light is hope, however faint and far. slowly but surely those small lights are fighting against the darkness we all feel and live in.
i'll share my light with you.
I find prayer helps me a lot when I'm bleak, especially when I was so low that suicide looked tempting. I also found a reason to live - my children. I couldnt leave them without a mother and father, so I toughed it out. I am still waiting on an answer for my prayer, but I haven't heard no, so that gives me some hope.
Well my friend in MA went through almost the same thing. DA subpoenaed the victim and she ran away the day of the trial. They scheduled a second date and she ran away again. Third date and she ran away yet again and then they finally dropped the charges. But obviously the stupid runs deep.