All this week I have thought that my kids' didn't mind my bf being gone... until my daughter decided to make a card out of paper for him. She designed it and wrote a little bit on the post card for him. It brought me to tears. She is so sweet... She included pictures of us for him to have with him. I'm going to send it to him tomorrow. This brought me to absolute tears. I can't stop thinking of him again now. I miss how we were like a family. He would be here and they would listen to him. Now they are back to their own thing and getting ready for bed but each of them told me how much they miss him and wish he was here. It was sweet. Now of course I'm crying and thinking of him but there's no getting away from that.. I'm making daily post office runs lately... ha ha.. I'm still frustrated that he hasn't written me or called but her doing that tonight really actually made me feel a little less hopeless. I hope he comes out of his shell of hiding and talks to me soon. I can only guess that that is why I haven't heard from him. I love him so much and I am completely at his side no matter how this turns out... It pains me that he is there and I'm here. ..