Any thoughts on my situation? Here it is; I am married now and still can't get past my son's father being in prison because we were together for a long time even while he was in jail awaiting trial. (until 2010) I sort of just gave up and moved on because I felt like he was getting too wrapped up in the jail environment instead of focusing on bettering himself . I always let him see our son but I hadn't really communicated with him in past 3 years since I had got engaged then married, but for the last past year since he's been in prison he's been on my mind constantly. I have dreams of him being free often. I miss him, I read all his old letters, I look at pictures of when we were together and a family with our son before he became incarcerated. It's been 5 1/2 years and I want his incarceration to end like NOW. Mostly for his children's sake! He has 2 more outside of our son and they all just need him. His family needs him too. I need him. He was such an instrumental part of our lives. But, I feel like there's a reason all this has happened. Probably because he was on a destructive pathway that myself or his family could keep him from going on. And I truly feel like if it wasn't for him being incarcerated he would have ended up dying. So, I thank God he didn't. Not quite sure what to do with these emotions I have right now. I've been sending him mail past few months and plan to visit him soon. Just sort of easing back into communication, I am a married woman so don't want these emotions to end my marriage. But, then again I can't help how I feel. I love him, I miss him, I want to see him, I want to hear him. My husband has been completely understanding of this, but he just wants me to start feeling better. I am an emotional wreck right now. I have guilt feelings too because maybe I should have not got married and stuck by his side through this all. Hopefully I'll feel better once we start communicating more.