OMG, I'm going crazy, I had to go and just read why suicide is a sin to calm me down tonight. He really ended us, her never had intentions of coming home to me, I see that now, his board is this tuesday or wednesday, he never called this week-end, and its so dam difficult not to write him, but I have to have will power, and strength. To top it off, well this is old news, sorry, the kid and I have been having huge blow-outs. Tonight it was she is going to the city/NY, to see his mother on "MOTHERS DAY", mind you I'm her so called mother, nah I'm just her live in nanny that has to pay her for living here and baby sitting her children. I love the boys with all my heart, their my world, but my kid is so cruel. I got so angry tonight once again said I don't have a daughter, she doesn't feel like a daughter. Her old man is always stealing money from her, and I have to pay the pipers price. The vacation she promised me, I'm no longer invited,,,,,,I received "DOUBLE WHAMMY TONIGHT" I'm so darn dead inside. Sorry if I am sounding like a broken record, just had to let this out.
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