I hope things get better. You've probably heard it before, but try doing some things you DO have control over. Be nice to yourself. Take a walk. Go shopping. Visit a friend. Listen to some music. Go see a movie. Those things make you stronger and missing out on them and seeing you happier may help motivate your addict to miss being clean and getting to be there with you.

I'm sorry your feeling so sad. But I think going to your appt even if by yourself will help YOU. And this is the sad part of being in an 'addicts life' is the ones they hurt. But what we do learn is that we have to take care of ourselves as well. I hope he does find the strength as well.

But As bhamguy wrote, do what you CAN do, what YOU have control over and that is yourself. Do something to take care of YOU. If YOU are not taking care of yourself, it doesn't help those around you. It is not selfish (as I had thought it was in my case). If we can't take care of ourselves, we won't have the strength to do what is needed for those that need us as well.

My Prayers go out to you.

I am so sorry. Sometimes our batteries just get worn out. Like everyone said, take care of you. that is all we can do. I am sure the stress does not help any health issues as well. should this be disclosed to the doctor?

My doctor knows everything. Since finding out about Mack's heroin use, I've been having anxiety attacks that have been getting progressively worse. I've been more scared than I have been in my entire life. And with Mack out of the house, I feel completely alone. He fights his demons. I fight my own.

This morning was particularly bad.

just try and relax,,, I know how you feel,,, heck I just had an anxiety attack the other day,,, and just talk to a friend,,, and she walked me through it,,, can't worry about something,, you can't control,,, surrender you addicit,,, don't let your addicitf, become your addicition,,

sometimes going for a walk,,, helps those "positivie" endorphins in our brain,,,,

Nothing you can do,, but for yourself,