Families & Friends Of Addicts Support Group
Addiction affects more than just the individual. This community is dedicated to the families and friends of individuals suffering from any form of addiction. Mental health professionals are increasingly considering alcoholism and addiction as diseases that flourish in and are enabled by family systems. Family members react to the addicted person with particular behavioral...
Mon.8/6 - well...six days into another month and I haven't done a single thing or accomplished any goal...wish I could be disciplined like all these Olympians winning the GOLD...but alas, I am not. Anyway, I didn't come here today to vent...I'm here for another reason....remember my personal equation (F4)=D? ...well...today it's Frustration and Fear that I am struggling with.... I had a dream last night...an ugly dream...I dreamed that I found out my husband was cheating on me with a pretty petite little hispanic woman...it was so fucking real...Apparently, the speaker was on on his phone when he called her and when she answered she said Hey! How you doing, Sweetheart!"...of course he stumbled to grab his phone and turn off the speaker but it was too late I already heard...then...he didn't even try to deny it (like he usually does)...he finally just fessed up and then she came to pick him up and they left together...well HE left me and went to be with her...UGH!...I hate dreams...they are so realistic...I lost it...another failed relationship...my second...my greatest fear...FUCK...I didn't care about anything...and I just tried to drink away my feelings...LOOK...my relationship/marriage at this point sucks...but I still love the guy...despite all the hurt he has caused me as an addict...I still love him, I still want him, and I just want our relationship/marriage to be like it was in the beginning...I want to spend the rest of my life with this guy...but not like this. OH well...just wanted to get my thoughts down on this early...I think I'll write him a letter/email about my dream I don't know...for now I need to go...but I'll be back later to write about my FRUSTRATION.
And you do accomplish things - most of your posts have them buried in the middle but you don't give yourself credit. You're working on all the issues that come with addiction even when you are sleeping - you're dealing with fears, betrayal, pain, hurt, but you are dealing with it. You're figuring out what you want and what you don't and you're making progress even if it doesn't seem like it yet.
I had a dream haunted me for years. I dreamed ah and I had divorced my daughter came over from visiting her aunt and said daddy wants to come talk to you. Across the field I could see a woman and a child walking on the driveway and this was his wife and child. He did come over and told me he was sorry, still cared for me but he was married with a child.
Fast forward about 4 years we did divorce, he did remarry and they have a baby. When my dream did come true it depressed me, but I have moved forward realizing he hasn't really changed now someone else is dealing with him. He's clean but I do not know how long that will last as his success rate with that is not good.
If anything do not put too much into the dream, let it go.