And that is OK.
Knowing when to call it quits and deciding it for yourself is empowering.

I agree with Blue and with that, you need to stop dwelling on all that's become toxic in your life & start refocusing it in a new direction.

Easier said than done in some cases and yes, it's going to take some time. But one step at a time will get you there. You might want to start with a couple small steps such as creating a simple list that includes your top 3-4 rules and boundaries for your new beginning; and don't forget to leave the hate, bitterness & anger behind as it will only slow consume & you down. Good luck!

Thank you I was really angry when I wrote this. I don't hate my mother but I hate what she does. Just seems that all I sacrifice is for nothing when she is alone on the weekend

Your right you don't hate your mom! You hate the addict. You have to try to detach not from your mom but from the addict, It's a difficult situation , but it is your only link to sanity and is the only thing that will give your mom a chance a sobriety.

I can relate. This is my first post in this support group. My mom is 85 and has been bailing my 52 year old brother out of trouble for 30 plus years. I am so angry with her and realize how sick she is. Sometimes I cry, try to limit my contact with her, don't talk about my brother and feel like I have to fight for her love. It makes me feel sad. I am 55 and have been dealing with my addicted family for as long as I can remember. I have some of my own issues as well. I miss having a Mom when he is out of jail or rehab. I stopped counting how many times this has happened because I no longer want to know. I still get hooked though.