I have been in the same place as you. Depression is a real medical condition have you gone to a doctor to get help. If your depression continues you could gets some medication to help boost your endorphins. Also exercise I had to make myself but that is a natural way to boost endorphins.
Welcome to procrastinators anonymous, our group never meets because we keep putting it off. But welcome anyways.
Try to do something nice for yourself. Read some jokes keep making yourself do things even when you don't want to. Make a list if you do one thing on the list cross it off. It will make you feel good that you accomplished something for that day.
Hugs.

Hi and sorry to hear that you're so down on things but there is help out there. Getting counseling help and a prescription for depression symptoms is a great start and keeping yourself active and venting your frustrations on this is also very cathartic. As for the perpetual chaos all I can say is you've come to the right group. We the sober are on the front lines waging war against drug and alcohol abuse and frankly, chaos is just one of those things we have to condend with. As an example from my own life my 18-yr old son is sitting in county lock-up facing what we thought were 4 adult felony charged. Within 2-days time we've learned there's one more juvenile and another adult charge yet to be filed; and added to that misery, his latest adult charge hit the front page of our local paper. Chaos, is my new middle name and I'm absolutely devistated. Bottom line is this site helps me deal with it b/c there's always support here and it will help you too. Stay strong and don't let what you didn't cause or can't control eat you up.