I really just want to say that I have come to care about each and everyone on this site very much. There aren't words to express how awful I feel every time I read the agony we all live thru and pain I feel each time I read a post where someone loses a loved one or feels so helpless.

This is a life I wish on no one.

My son is in rehab. I wish I could say it's going well. He came home once and used. Went to medical and met his gf without permission. He's been told he needs to find another program. I cling to hope that he will "kick in" and work it like he is capable. I saw him do it before. He says he's not motivated. Last week they lost another from his group. OD'ed. He's numb to it. He's sad and sick of just hearing it all. Yet he isn't court ordered there and still stays. He's detoxed. I'm not sure what to think. Maybe because he's homeless he stays.

Considering another state. He's wanting to try it. Working on how because ins is an issue.

All I basically wanted to say is that I care. I care about the hurt and pain you all go thru. Reading today about yet another loss had my heart heavy all day. You are all in my prayers. I hope we can all get thru this together. Help each other. Sending prayers for us all.