Hi everyone, it's been a very long time since I stopped in. Some of you may remember me, but for those that don't my addict's DOC was heroin and meth. My Mack now has over two years clean. His brain is healing. And I am still sticking with him. It's been a very long and challenging road getting to where we are now. I still have anxiety issues. I still have trust issues. I am trying to work through those. Sometimes, he's understanding of why I have such a hard time moving on. And other times he get impatient. We are both still working on it. Mack is still determined that he wants to be a CDP (chemical dependency professional). He is very insecure about going back to school. He doesn't think that he can do it. We have actually been arguing back and forth about this. He needs to do something besides play video games with the kids all day. He finally agreed to starting with a class or two at the community center to help get his brain ready to go back to school. The other big event in our lives is the horrible custody battle for his sons. This has been ongoing since April 2013. Earlier this year the court appointed a GAL. The GAL's investigation and report was submitted to the court in our favor. Her recommendation is that the boys live with us. The custody trial starts in 17 minutes. Parts of our lives are getting in order and other parts seem to be the same. As for the drugs, there will always be that underlying fear. But, there is also hope. There isn't a day that goes by that I do not think about all the horrible things this family went through because of Mack's addiction. Some days are easier than others. I'm not sure what the point of my post is, I guess all I'm trying to say is do not give up hope. It is possible for addicts to come back. It will never happen as fast as we want it to, but it can happen. My addict is still getting there. But I am more confident today that he will make it.

-april