I have been involved with alcoholic/addicts since I was 19. My last relationship lasted 6 years. He clean/sober for the first 3 years before he walked back into my life. After a year, I went back home to be with him. And he stayed clean 2 more years. Then the relapses started. In and out of jail, in and out of treatment. After 3 more years, I said this is your last chance. He stayed clean a year and then relapsed. His DOC is crack. The day he relapsed again, I threw him out. 2 months later he moved in with an old girlfriend and I moved 2,000 miles away. Over the last 3 years, he'd contact me once a year so his girlfriend could scream at me because he was still in love with me and he was getting worse. Thanksgiving 2007 his 19 year old daughter died of a crack overdose. I sent a condolence card. In May he called, the girlfriend threw him out for the last time and he was a mess. We have talked off and on since. One call a good one, one call he screams at me. He immediately picked up a woman in a bar and moved in with her. But kept calling me. 6 weeks ago he called to say she had thrown him out for the last time (she did it weekly) and he'd had enough. Could he come out here and start over. I told him if you get the ticket and you are READY to get clean/sober, yes. He then told me that since I've left he has progressed to drinking/drugging 24/7. The new bimbo is an alcoholic/addict herself who was using him to furnish her empty apartment. And he confessed he was only with her so he would NOT be lonely and have a roof over his head. (This man has NEVER had his own place and taken responsibility for his own life). I was so hopeful that this time he was ready. But yet a little anxious. Cuase he is SO much worse than when we were together. I still love this man and when he was clean, it was the BEST relationship I have ever had. We worked hard to have a healthy, good relationship. And he was the most loving, gentle, kind man I knew. Anyway, 2 weeks after that last phone call, I was reading the paper back home and saw where he has applied for a marriage license with the new bimbo. (he has proposed to 8 other women as well. 6 before he knew me and 2 since I've left) He sees marriage as a roof over his head and free room and board. But it still hurts that he would do this. And I wonder what this woman has that I don't. He called her "trailer trash". Said she drinks and drugs and is on disability for severe mental issues. So..why do I take it personally?