Imagine have a crack addicted mom for you whole life. As a child running in and out of crack houses to get her and now worrying all night if she is alright. I refuse to go into one of those places. I have three boys that depend on me. I pray to God I don't have to don't have to go through this with any of my children. She has credited drugs with this entire check and next months check. She pretended to try to take an overdose and let my brother in jail know and he worried me until I went to check on her. I actually almost made it to late and feel like I missed my opportunity to live a few of my adult years stress free. I know it sounds horrible but that's how I feel. She talking about well what am I going to do. I don't know. Things are tight on me and my husband. I can barely pay for my son's aau tournaments. I'm unhappily married dealing with a crackhead mother. If my boys didn't need me I would just end it all. I am tired of this life.