I just let go of my boyfriend completely today, and it HURTS! We have been together since May of last year, and it was love at first site. He started using meth about 6 months ago. At first he said it was just every once in a while, to help him get his work done, and that he wasn't going to get addicted. I tried talking to him, tried to convince him he didn't need it, that he was already addicted. We've been off & on again ever since. I break up with him because he's a tweeker, he realizes he needs me, says he wants to quit, but needs my help, so I do what I can to help, I find out he secretly got high, (I can always tell), break up with him, the whole cycle starts again. Over & over & over again. I love him so much & I'm just so afraid for him. He's so skinny. (6ft. 110 lbs.) He is killing himself. This last time (today) we sat down & REALLY talked about it. I told him what I needed from him in order to earn my trust back & we started to write down a plan of action. He really seemed seriouse this time, but the more he thought about it, the more he didn't want to do it. I told him he needed to make a decision, me or that other life, he couldn't have both. He chose the other life. I told him he better be sure that's what he really wants because this is it, if he walks out that door, don't call me, don't text me, we're not friends, not anything, never again. He walked. I am so afraid for him. How do I stop caring if he lives or dies??? This is so painful for me.