all of you have been amazing,,, just wanted to let you all know, how much I appreciate your concerns, caring words, inspiring ideas,,,, I'm so glad I found this site,, I may not post all the time,, but I do read, think, and can relate to everyone else,,,,, no matter what the situation is,,,, addicition is not prejudice and effects all walks of life,,,,, I have many friends that stand by my family, and have been wonderful,, but unless you ever dealt with this problem,,, even though theyo try to understand they have no idea,,,, there are times when they tell me to be strong,, but there are momentswhen I don't want to be,,,, that's when I come here,,, or tormsmy group, where I have an amazing sponser,,, I also have my faith, a recovery bible, which if any of you can get one,, it is so worth it,,, and God has held me in His arms through this roller coaster!,,,, again thanks to all of you.... God bless each and everyone of you through this christmas,,,, this holiday will be a rough one for me,,,, my mom died suddenly in feb, and my dad past away 15years ago on christmas,, and now my daughter will be in jail,, I do look at all the blessings I do have,,, and am so greatful,,,