I also feel really guilty actually leaving him...I'm also wondering if he's going to choke on his food in the middle of the night which he has before drunk sleep/eating. He falls down occasionally and I wonder how many times hes fallen without me knowing and when he will crack his head open one of these days. I've watched him fall out of a tree win a chainsaw in his hand drunk hes fallen down the back steps and broke his foot. One of you girls I think Katrinka told me to write this stuff down and I used to do that but then I would crumble it up and throw it away but now I'm keeping a journal in my kindle with a password and writing these upsetting things down no matter how stupid they seem and re reading them has helped me think like OMG I cant deny this! Anyway my AH shirts are always stained with food Cuz hes such a gross pig when he eats drunk. He slops all over himself and I'm the one who gets all the stains out. He cant even feel the food hanging off his chin! Can u believe he asked my friend if be wasn't married if she would have sex with him? This is insane! She can have him!