My ex called tonight with some excuse of why he called. (So, yes, you do hear again). The last he had talked to me he wanted to come out here at the end of October and start over. We talked for a while tonight and then I asked him if he married the woman that he was calling trailer trash, crackho and that was using him? And he said, "yes". So, I asked why he was calling me and he said he wanted to say a belated Merry Christmas. I said it wasn't necessary to bother me now that he'd married the woman he said was using him. And he said he'd call another time. And I said, "don't bother." But it still hurts. I asked him what kind of game he was playing in October and he said it was not a game...he WANTED to come here. But then he turns around and marries this other woman to keep a roof over his head. And he said he's been clean and sober for 3 months...except when he got married and I KNOW from mutual friends he was drunk 2 weeks ago. And I know...move on....etc. But it still hurts a lot. He gave up everything we had...to continue drinking and drugging and marry some bimbo.
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