Oh I kinda checked out of reality for a bit,, and went to my little paradise up north,, where fresh air, sound of nature,, and no electronics,, can't do it in the winter,, because of no address,, therefore no plowing of the snow,, deffinetly take advantage of it in the summer,,,
I released, relaxed and recharge,, sometimes life gets a bit chaotic,, and just need to step out,,and be reminded of all the good things that are surrounded by us,,, , still no word from Katelin,, which by my way of thinking is good,,, although I still can't understand how someone can just shut out or off the ones that love her so much,,, I spendt the time up north realizing no point in trying to analyze someone else,,, my second child turns (21),, and that is so bitter sweet,, my little baby boy,, now a man,, it just goes to show how time does fly,,, my girls,, did extremely well this school year,, with my third child,,, able to recieve her associate degree from colledge at the sand time she gets her diploma,, extremely proud of her extrem efforts,,, her dream is to be a doctor one day,,, my fourth child,(16), will be a junior this year,, and bought her first car ,she babysatt her but off to achieve this,,, and then little miss Ava, lost her first tooth,,, she advanced to the second grade,, and did inquire about a last name change,,, she does talk about her mom,,, but in reference to the past,,, she tells me at least once a week how much she loves being part of this big family,,,,
So, I'm healthy happy,,, and still praying everyday for a glimpse of my daughter,,, I know it's her choice to return,,, but light of hope will always remain on,, to keep the path of her journey lite,,,

May peace,, enlighten all of you
Insanity is,,,,, keep doing the sane thing over and over and expecting different results,,, we all have a choice,,, a victim or a victor,,,

Love ya!!