It has been a while since I posted here or even come to read others posts My AH checked in to a 28 day rehab program this past Monday. He got fired from his job the Wed before, but didn't tell me until this past Wed. He had been hired in that position in June after losing his previous job. This was the job he had dreamed of as far as money and benefits and once again he blew it. He wasn't fired due to his drinking, but his drinking was apparently affecting his work. I still am unsure as exactly what the reason was that he was terminated but when I talked to Human Resource on Wed and mentioned that he was in rehab she was genuinely surprised to hear that he had addiction problems and that was what was affecting his work. He received one month severance pay and he will not get out of rehab until around Dec 6th-7th, so he will not be able to do any job searching until after that.

It is a scary time. I am thankful that he has come to a place of hitting the bottom and realizing after 8-9 years that he truly needs the help to beat this, but at the same time being a stay at home mom of 3, I am so stressed about the job situation. He has had so many jobs in the past 2-3 years that I am so afraid that it is going to be really hard to find anything that will pay what we need for him to make to just make ends meet.

I am trying to decide myself if I should try to find something part time, but then I have a 2 year old and homeschool my older kids and I do not have any help with watching them if I were to get a job and I wouldn't make enough to afford daycare or anywhere near enough to pay all our bills. It is just depressing. I am praying that God will open doors for another job position for my husband that will pay well with good benefits so we will not end up losing everything.

I am so angry that he let this addiction over take his life and put our family in such a horrible place. I pray that we look back on this time and say that his losing his job was the best thing that could have happened because he got the help he needed to get sober. I pray that he really takes this time to get his head on straight and that he doesn't get out and go back to drinking. His mom let us borrow the money for rehab and it was ridiculous. I pray he doesn't end up going through this and waste that money by going back to old habits. Please pray for our family.