I think my husband has relapsed but i'm not sure and I haven't pressed the issue other than telling him i'm here for him if he is struggling. He has become increasingly paranoid like he did when he was using. On my daily walk yesterday I found two syringes on the side of the road, of course i'm not sure if they are his that he threw out but still highly suspicious. I told him what I found and he said they werent' his. I dropped it.
Then this morning when he was getting ready for work and I was laying in bed he said "why are you looking at me funny" The lights weren't even on!!! As soon as he left for work at 5:15am he text asking who I had at the house....I said no one was there me and the kids were in bed. He said he seen someone turn around after he pulled out of the driveway and pull into our driveway.
It turned into a huge fight and he thinks I had someone come to the house as soon as he left for work....how outragous is that! I told him he was being irrational and I certainly didn't have anyone at the house that early in the morning and that if someone had pulled into our driveway he should've turned around immediately and seen what was going on since me and the kids were sleeping in the house alone, God knows who it was or what they were doing. But of course that couldn't be the case...to him I had someone (a man) wait for him to leave for work at 5:15am to come over. I didn't even hear a vehicle in the driveway, but of course that's what he saw. I said maybe it was the neihbor in their driveway but nope it was ours. THis isn't the first time he's accused me of doing something i'm not. I almost feel like he's trying to find fault in me so he can have an excuse to use. I'm at my wits end, I thought he was doing so well. I don't think I could stay if he relapses again, I can't do this every year.
I don't know if he really thinks he seen this or if he is using again and making it up....i'm just at a loss...