Well my son finally called 3 weeks after being arrested for the umpteenth time and 3 weeks after one of his friends confided in us that my son is gay.....
According to this friend my son despises being gay and will never admit it to his family...
I told him we know and we do not care. We just all love him and want him to survive. He claimed he was telling this person all lies just to get more drugs and alcohol. This friend claims to love my son and said my son loved him. They were together 3 months. I have no idea if its true or not I do not care. I am just relieved my son is in jail safe from the drugs and all the other terrifying situations he had allowed himself to get caught up in. He sounded strong and clearheaded on the phone and I told him to think about everything and write to us. I told him his entire family loves him unconditionally and we all hope he will finally get the help he so desperately needs.
Tonight I will sleep better then last... for some reason I feel a bit hopeful that maybe just maybe this is the missing piece of the puzzle I have been searching for all this time. My son has been on a mission for the last 12 years, a mission to kill himself with as much drugs and alcohol he can consumme. Now maybe we will be able to understand why....