I am confused.

He is back at the family house.

Parents say that he says all the right things and sometimes says all the wrong things.

I dont want to push him into meeting with me. I want him to take his time and reach out to me when he feels like it.

Last time I saw him was a year ago. I saw him one more time but only for a few brief seconds. Anyway, one year has passed by

I called home last night like I do every day. He picked it up.

And I was the happy sister, the welcome home brother sister, the dont you worry too much about me, youve got enough on your own plate sister, the Ill arrange to go to this that and the other festival sister, the did you like my present sister, the Im working on myself for my sake and for the familys sake sister, the I love you sister, the I never gave up on you sister, the I made terrible mistake as well sister, the sister I thought I should be.

I am so terribly confused

I have learned not to trust him. But he sounded so well, he sounded so determined and clear headed... But he used to be like that in the past too.. and then, he'd disappear..

This is a transitional period. Yet another one.

Any ideas about the difference between co dependence and caring?

I don't know who I am supposed to be with my brother.. Don't want to raise my hopes. Don't want to crush his hopes.