I am glad he was still sober.
And that he understood.
Self care is so important for ALL of us....but especially newly recovered.
My son, sober almost 7 years, took a second job...when his first is already long hours. I had those old feelings come up. Over working was one of his big triggers for a huge collapse. But, he is fine. And so is your son.
Grateful for every day.

Well apparently I'm not the only one who thought this. His sober house roommate questioned him and they tested him twice. Came up clean.

Don't know what to think. This is making me crazy. All us moms can relate I know. Grrrrr

I hope he is not doing too much of those "energy drinks" because they can affect the heart and blood pressure in a negative way.
One of the hardest things to deal with in having an addict in the family is lack of trust. As a mom, we feel guilt for not trusting but that's because of the relationship. I'm pretty sure the rehab counselors don't feel guilt for not trusting them. Our love and involvement gets in the way of their recovery sometimes. Good job on testing him! They have created the environment (a consequence) that they live in; we didn't. It's so hard to do the right things when dealing with our addicted children which is why it's so important that we receive support from each other!
I couldn't stop obsessing over my son yesterday which ruined the entire day for me. I know I shouldn't do it but was mentally stuck. Sometimes it feels like a nightmare and I'd give anything to just wake up from it. But I am forced to learn how to deal with it or perish myself. Nothing could be more painful....
Grateful for this site. :)

Ndh...
I feel better after these responses. You are a million percent right. His counselors test him and if he fails once he's out. Why should I have different rules to live by? I'm glad I tested him too. I didn't come this far to close my eyes. I didn't ask for this life. And I'm entitled to it. He doesn't like it stay home

I'm happy he pasted your drug test, I think I might go get myself a couple of those. Any special brands you can suggest, keeping in mind my daughter's weakness is benzo's like clonopin, adivan or Valium? It's terrible that we mom's have to think like this but if our kids have nothing to hide taking the test shouldn't be a problem, right?

I got mine from a rehab counselor. However don't stick with only the tests Patnard for what you think are their drug of choice is. I have the ones that test for everything.

I can shake the fact that his sober house thought he was high. Past two there also. But somethings off. I
Now understand there is a synthetic opiate called Pimp Bombs. Gets you high like heroin and doesn't show on a test. Wonderful. So
If he did do something like this he now knows everyone is riding him

Honestly I cannot understand how these "head shops" can get away with selling these detox drinks...fake urine...synthetic weed and now this crap. WTF is wrong with this country! I don't get it

Yea its understandable. Moms will be moms. We care, we love, we nurture these are our babies, even though they are grown men, we want to mother them. He understands I believe and that's probably something he has to know he is responsible for that small doubt, but really not a harmful thing he probably knows it was done out of care and concern.

well from one scared mom to another...take a deep breath and try to relax and take care of yourself ...one day at a time... hugs and prayers

Thank you all. I unfortunately was right. He relapsed ugh

Don't feel alone, TRUST takes time to earn and seconds to lose and a long journey to get back....our son is now 9 months in recovery and STILL I hear his voice on the phone, have had him here at the house several times and I still have that voice in my head.....he lost my trust and I have a hard time trusting STILL.....smh...it is the hardest thing NOT to trust your own child, but it's how 'we roll'....I question everything and now take a breath before I say anything....like Dad use to say 'make sure brain is engaged before putting mouth into gear'.....hard to do! Know you're not alone....we're all in the same boat, just with one paddle....hopefully one day we'll all find that second paddle....hugs and prayers to you!

Oh no! As Mothers we have instincts that are truly amazing.

So sorry. Big hugs

Thank you all...

Well he got his newcomer keychain from his meeting two nights ago. It's sad it threw away many months of sobriety to test the waters of that freaking heroin. As I always say they never learn if they never fall. Key is picking yourself back up and starting over. I'm angry and a lot of things...but most of all grateful he has taken the first steps again to start over.

Whew I'm exhausted