So I haven't really posted in awhile because I have been enjoying a bit of peace and calm for awhile and it is awesome I must say. I still come here daily to read your posts and see how all of you are doing. Matt has been extremely busy at work this is their crazy season in refrig and air conditioning. I am so happy to say that he really has become his old self again , pleasant appreciative mannerly etc. but it did take awhile of abstinence to see these changes. He bought himself a new car (actually its used 3 years old. But it's a BMW ) something he's always wanted and he loves it! I love it too ! He is really proud of himself that he was able to accomplish this on his own and yes he has a hefty car payment now but it is good for him I think to have that responsibility . I do feel sorry for him that his insurance is so expensive but he manages and again the responsibility and sense of accomplishment he feels seems to work for him in a positive way. His job loves him he is a very hard worker ( takes after my husband) that man never stops, a few of you know that a couple months back he was offered another job and when he tryed to give his 2 week notice his boss was very upset and offered him a lot to stay so he did and I think it boosted his self confidence to feel so wanted so it is great . Life is still not perfect and I still worry sometimes but I have come to a much more accepting place and I know it is not guaranteed that things will stay as well as they are now but I pray all the time and have hope and faith that they will . I just wanted to give hope to everyone hat things can get better believe me my life was so out of control last year I didn't think things would ever get any better at the time so I will continue to pray for Matt that he stays on the right path he seems to be on now and I will also pray for all of you and your loved ones for the same thing. Peace Hope and Faith to all love you guys Dee