Hi I am Jerrie this group was recommended to me by a frend who comes on daily strength also.I loss my brother to suicide in April 2007.To write this is even very difficult for me.I guess as a song I like goes it really hits you when you see it in stone or in this case written in a post,To me there is no comparsion to losing someone by suicide.My brother was not the first in my family but is one of the most painful I am going through.I am 43 yrs old never married no kids considered the odd ball in my family When cousins and relatives. heard it was brother who killed himself they said I figured it would of been Jerrie..I am also the youngest in my family.My brother was born in 1969 and I in 1970.We were like twins my mom said cause we were so close in age.I had been diagnosed with major depression when I was 20 yrs old.I am on medication and stable for now.I seeked out help knowing my family had several people die from suicide and depression.My brother had tried as a teenager to end his life.I found him I was 14 he had tried to over dose and hang himself with a wire hanger.I got him help and my family acted as if it never happen and never spoke of it.Al was married had tow beautiful sons and was 37 when he told his sons he would be back later and never came home.His wife waited 24 hrs before calling the police.The next day after I was contacted and went to help look for Al he was found by the police dead in his truck by shot gun.I go to therapy and see a doctor for anxiety and depression.I need to stop for now.Hugss.Jerrie