Families & Friends Affected By Suicide Support Group
Suicide affects not only the individual, but also the family and friends who provide support and love. This community is offered as a place for those affected by suicide to gather and gain strength from each other. PLEASE NOTE: If you are suffering from suicidal thoughts, please take advantage of our CRISIS RESOURCES, which you can find at the bottom of every page of the...
I had a really good friend take her own life 4 years ago...and I cant get her out of my mind...I wonder what IF...all the time...what if I had been there for her more...at least talked to her on the phone once a day...but no...i shut her out...let others deal with her...I was pregnant at the time and suffering from depression myself...but still...just a few phone calls.............I just dont see that I have really dealt with her death.
Then a year ago I lost another friend to suicide, this time i didnt even know she had any problems and I wasnt really all that close to her...but my kids were and they were devestated when they heard she was gone...she always seemed so happy.
I havent dealt with her death either.
Now I have another friend who is bipolar and been close to suicide a few times over the last few months...I try my hardest to keep her alive...i have to...I cant let another friend go...if that were to happen, i would soon follow.
I already have plenty of thoughts of suicide and it scares me so much.
anyway...dont know how rambling on like this is meant to help..but can only try....cant keep bottling it up forever
Then a year ago I lost another friend to suicide, this time i didnt even know she had any problems and I wasnt really all that close to her...but my kids were and they were devestated when they heard she was gone...she always seemed so happy.
I havent dealt with her death either.
Now I have another friend who is bipolar and been close to suicide a few times over the last few months...I try my hardest to keep her alive...i have to...I cant let another friend go...if that were to happen, i would soon follow.
I already have plenty of thoughts of suicide and it scares me so much.
anyway...dont know how rambling on like this is meant to help..but can only try....cant keep bottling it up forever
Have also been seeing a psychiatrist for the last 8 years but dont feel I can talk to him about it...he keeps saying Im not stable enough with my own mental health to be talking about it to much anyway....so cant win....
I"m so sorry for what you've been through. I understand how it feels.
One of the things I had to force myself to accept after my friend's suicide was the fact that I would never be the same person I was before it happened. I wanted so badly to go back and try to fix everything, and it's taken years of struggling, pain, and fury to realize I just have to let it go. There's a difference between letting go and forgetting, I've learned. I can move past what happened and still live my life. I have to. I don't have any other options.
If you want to talk to someone who knows how it feels, I'm always here.
x x x
-Megan
Keep happy remember their lives, not their deaths, takes time.
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