Look for a therapist . Talk to friends about who they may have used or if they know someone. In the worse case break out the yellow pages.

I wish I had better advice, but if they are not listening to you then it is time to switch Dr's and take matters into your own hands.

Stay strong and keep trying. If you are suicidel then get to the ER imediatly.

Let the doctor see you cry -
You can also say that you are managing your dark thoughts, but are looking for help because you fear becomming weaker.

Finally, try to identify if it is situational (something upsetting you) or biological (anything from lacking sleep, exercise, nutrients, or another imbalance that requires medication).

My brother committed suicide on February 18, 2012. Before I could go for the funeral, I went and had a hernia operation that had been six months in coming. The surgery was on Thursday, we flew to be with my parents on Friday, the funeral was on Saturday and we flew home on Sunday. Then I had to be back to work on Monday. I've been trying to keep busy to stop thinking about him because we were so close and I didn't see this suicide coming. My life will never be the same and I miss him every day but it is easier now. The crying days are fewer. I went to a grief counsellor who is also a minister and she helped me alot. Just to release my anger at him leaving me and all the other stuff that I was dealing with. There is no immediate cure for grief. The only thing that works is time and patience. Medication will just delay the dealing with it. I also found several good grief sites where you can get daily positive emails that I found helped me. Talk to someone and deal with your anger and grief. Be patient with yourself and don't compare yourself to how others are grieving. There is major support on this website, all you have to do is ask. Lean on someone for awhile until you get your feet under you again. It doesn't make you less of a person it just makes you human. I hope this helps as this is what has helped me so far. I survived his birthday and Christmas without him now I will have to survive my birthday and the anniversary of his death. Those are gonna be hard ones for me but I will survive and eventually thrive and you will too! *HUG*

My half-brother who I barely knew ended his life about 15 years ago. Even, as I say, I barely knew him, there was a long period of time where I wondered if I did something wrong and contributed to his demise, or if there was something I didn't do. But our family dynamics were to blame, not me. When you grow up in a situation where every day you are beaten and told you are worthless it easier to go over the edge.

And yes, MickKay, I have migraine pain every day and I feel like it's ruined my life and pushed me to that edge.

My dad committed suicide when I was 17 and it has caused me pain and thoughts of suicide ever since. I wish I had some advice for you. But I can just tell you that I have had the same experience with my doctor telling me that I don't need anti depressiants. Maybe try smoking pot, joking but maybe not. My dad's suicide has caused me to feel like I have a hole in my soul. That should be something to think about if you have thoughts of suicide. Suicide doesn't just hurt you, it hurts your friends and famiy.

The person who suicides doesn't think about those left behind. How could they? B/C if they knew the pain that we go through for years and they had any feelings for us at all, THEY WOULDN'T DO IT!

No, daninfla, you didn't have anything to do with your brother's death. I read early in my journey that everyone who has anything to do with the person (even the gas station attendant in our case) feels on level THEY are the one who could have done something. They couldn't have.

I'd advise you to go to a mental health center and get them to set you up with a pdoc. Doctors are quirky people to say the least. Blessings to you guys and best wishes for better days.

I strongly disagree that medication will delay your grief. That is an old wives tale type thought. Medication, as my therapist described it, helps take the edge off things. Helps you function so that you can go on with your life without breaking down every waking moment. I am shocked you are having trouble getting it and I do agree a therapist is best place to start. I was on it for a little less than a year, and I knew when I was ready to go off of it. Peace to you.

I definitely feel your frustration. Yesterday I went to my dr to switch my antidepressant because it hasn't been working. I started it four months ago after my aunt killed herself. I have major anxiety issues and depression. I also have fibromyalgia and chronic headaches. The couldn't decide what to put me on because everything seemed to interact with my headache and fibro meds. I just broke down and started crying and having a panic attack. She gave me a medicine that I don't think was the right fit for me so I still feel helpless. Talking about it helps! See a therapist, talk to family and friends, and just venting on boards like this can be beneficial. Hang in there! I know it's hard, but just keep going! I am always here to listen!

I saw a therapist and the recommendation was anti-depressants plus therapy. My doctor finally prescribed some and they really are helping a lot.....but they're making me dizzy, so there's a med for that. To those kind enough to write, this has nothing to do with grief, my brother died 15 years ago. I think it has to do with having constant migraines. Or maybe some people just suffer from depression without a mental cause. I cut my dose back on the pills and I still think it's helping without me being so dizzy. Thanks again.