Families & Friends Affected By Suicide Support Group
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I cant say for sure why others do commit suicide. I can say why I almost did several times but lucked out and didnt and now can see why they do yet can see why those left behind are so at a loss to understand.
I sat in a funeral for a neighbor that committed suicide. During it it was stated that "God will not forgive those that commit since it is like mudrder to take a life" and that it should never be an option. "it is so selfish, how could they do it"
Those that haven't been there and felt the hurt and pain cant understand. I am sorry for those that have lost a friend a lover or family member. I truely am. I have to say it is like Alcoholics. Once your an addict your an addict. You might be strong enough to avoid it and never use again but the temptation is always there. Once you have thought about ending it you are now just like an drug addict. It will come back maybe daily You either act on it or you push it out and go on.
I cant tell you how an orange tastes but I know how it taste. I cant tell you how the pain feels or what it was like but it is real just the same. I recall only one of the times I did and I came to within a fraction of a second and then was able to stop. Mine was not from fear of being in trouble with family or friends or the law. MIne was from pain. I can remember the pain and hurt and the hell I was feeling and it was not about getting even or hurting someone or anyone not even myself. That hell is unreal and I cant describe it but it is real. I think I am pretty tough and am not an addict but I was hurting so bad and no one could help or had helped and I wanted it over. If there is a God he would not turn his head and condemn me for wanting that pain to go away. I didn't ask for my pain. If there is a god he would love me and try to understand as my friends and family should but couldn't. He would take me in his arms and tell em the pain is gone now. I will hurt no more.
If you haven't had that kind of pain you cant understand. That pain is either mental and physical or both. Mine was both. Mine is both.
I sat in a funeral for a neighbor that committed suicide. During it it was stated that "God will not forgive those that commit since it is like mudrder to take a life" and that it should never be an option. "it is so selfish, how could they do it"
Those that haven't been there and felt the hurt and pain cant understand. I am sorry for those that have lost a friend a lover or family member. I truely am. I have to say it is like Alcoholics. Once your an addict your an addict. You might be strong enough to avoid it and never use again but the temptation is always there. Once you have thought about ending it you are now just like an drug addict. It will come back maybe daily You either act on it or you push it out and go on.
I cant tell you how an orange tastes but I know how it taste. I cant tell you how the pain feels or what it was like but it is real just the same. I recall only one of the times I did and I came to within a fraction of a second and then was able to stop. Mine was not from fear of being in trouble with family or friends or the law. MIne was from pain. I can remember the pain and hurt and the hell I was feeling and it was not about getting even or hurting someone or anyone not even myself. That hell is unreal and I cant describe it but it is real. I think I am pretty tough and am not an addict but I was hurting so bad and no one could help or had helped and I wanted it over. If there is a God he would not turn his head and condemn me for wanting that pain to go away. I didn't ask for my pain. If there is a god he would love me and try to understand as my friends and family should but couldn't. He would take me in his arms and tell em the pain is gone now. I will hurt no more.
If you haven't had that kind of pain you cant understand. That pain is either mental and physical or both. Mine was both. Mine is both.
Now, as an adult, I have medical issues for which I have to take drugs that have psychiatric side effects, one of them was even being considered to be pulled from the market due to it creating suicidal ideation. However, I can't not take the drugs since that means I can't breath and die from not enough oxygen. I've also had other medical issues arise, and in fact when I describe the medical history to a minister once, he said, "wow, that is a lot to deal with." It's a long story, but there are times when I don't see a good option medically. My family is not supportive. When I've tried to get help, it goes ignored some of the time. So, my strategy at this point is to just hold on and eventually the feeling passes...especially if it's due to drug changes. When the drugs change and the suicidal ideation occurs, I just hold on and know it will pass. There is no other option drug wise to treat the medical conditions and without those drugs I would be dead from respiratory failure.
Sometimes I wonder if there is a God who loves me, then why are most people not interested in helping or understanding? I know there is a God who loves me, but it is something I question at times.
Anyway, thanks for the thoughts and posts. It's not that a person wants to feel that way. It's hard to explain, as you say. It's not a simple as "I chose to rob someone". It's more of something deep inside that comes up. No one wants to feel that way. It only makes a person scared to ask for help for fear of being judged. What a person needs most of all is to be heard and cared for and helped. I just try to live each moment and make sure what I'm doing will help me in the future and I hold on and endure pain when it comes and then it passes. I try to make my body do things even if I don't feel like it. If I'm depressed (can be a side effect of the meds), then I still somehow force myself to get up and do a daily routine. Then, by doing, sometimes the mood will change. Sometimes not, but it passes with time.