I am seriously down today, I just don't feel like dealing with this anymore. I am wore out physically, mentally, and emotionally. All I want to do is cry....I am in so much damn pain and so tired from fighting it, which why do we do that (fight the pain) it just makes it worse....and I don't want to be around anyone today I don't feel like talking, I don't feel like working. I want to be by myself, in my bed and I want to just stay there. I just can't deal with this crap anymore, I was such a fool to believe that the hysterectomy would make it go away, now I am back to the constant pain that I thought I would not ever have to feel again.....I AM SO SICK OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
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