My self-esteem.

My self-image.

My college experience.

My ability to competitively Figure Skate.

My independence.

My ability to make plans for the future.

My ability to work, walk, and sleep.
My ability to make plans, and stick to them.
My ability to convert to Judaism. :(
My ability to meet other people, in the hopes of meeting my soul mate. "One is the loneliest number...."
My inner strength and ability to push through adversity. I'm just too tired to ignore my pain anymore.

But it still doesn't keep me from smiling. :)

-my self worth
-my ability to work everyday
-my ability to keep my sick/vac time every year
-I cant schedule vacations or plan anything
-my sisters pregnancy with my beautiful niece who is 4 now
-my body- stomach is covered in scars
-the possibility that I can have children because when in pain I cant have sex
-the fear I will pass this on to a daughter because it is genetic
-the fear that I will have to explain to a new boyfriend that it is possible I will be sick at any moment and poss. cant have kinds

but with all this said I still try to stay positive and move on as best I can. WE are all beautiful and strong women we are just dealing with a horrible disease that many don't understand!

stay strong everyone

I just want to share a light in the darkness that is Endo. It did take away some of my teen years and filled me with the fear that I may never have children. When I met my now husband, I was 18 and he was 20. Despite being young and in college, we knew that we were meant for each other. I told him from the start that i was unsure if I could have children since I hadn't had a period on my own in 3 years. The next 3 years were followed by numerous appts, a couple of laps, and lots of tears. I had Endo and pcos. We spent our first year of marriage in and out of the re's office. I offered my husband a divorce numerous times because I knew he wanted kids and I wasn't giving him any. He finally told me that he married me because he loved me, not to give him children. Five years later, we are happily married with two boys and baby number 3 due in may. Only the first was conceived through meds; the other two we have conceived on our own the first month of trying. I still have days of pain and unpredictable periods but I made a decision a long time ago that I couldn't let this disease own me. It's a part of me but I'm not defined by it. I am sad that I want this baby to be our last because of the Endo and pcos symptoms between pregnancies but it's a part of life that I've had to accept.
I'm praying that one way or another all of you ladies get to live your life on your terms, not endo's.

Relationships

I struggle with people who have no understanding of what it means to have endo. I struggle when people whine about how hard their life is because they have kids to take care of, when I don't know that I'll ever have kids. I feel a lot of my relationships have been hurt because of this.

My ability to work fully (I quit my job due to endo)
Potentially my career goals (if I can't get these sx undercontrol)
almost took away my educational goals (I have taken numerous semesters from school)
potentially my ability to have children
realationships
my sex life
My ability to take public transportaion (I need access to a bathroom at all times, sorry tmi)
I live in constant fear of having a pain flare or a gi flare at the most inappropriate times

My credit, due to expensive medical bills

My sex life, sometimes its too painful

Lost jobs, afraid for jobs in the future

Ability to have children is unknown at the moment

Stability, every moment is unpredictable

Regular sleeping schedule, I am constantly fatigued

Friendships, they did not understand

In-laws respect, they do not understand and because of this think I am the scum of the earth, and not good enough for their son

Sometimes my sanity

Had it since age 20- gonna be 42

My college experience, my credit, relationships, my confidence- to an extent, my work, my sleep, my figure, i'm sooo fat... :)---- my faith in God, my religion to an extent....friends, family, ability to have sex, ability to clean or do chores outdoors, without suffering

My self-esteem and self confidence.
My social life
My sex life...I'm 32 yrs old and I push men away when they get too close, I'm still a virgin because of it.
My relationship with my sister...she doesn't even try to understand or even cares to ask how I'm doing.
My everyday life...I'm so fatigued all the time and in pain.
My peace of mind.

and yet with all these symptoms we are experiencing, why isnt endo considered a diability?

I too am experiencing the same as you ladies but yet we have to put on this face that everything is ok, when it's not.

**disability

My possible future,

Being able to wake up and feel good.

Traveling. I used to love to travel and do things at the spur of the moment. I can't do that anymore.

I miss not having to worry about what I eat, what I wear, what products I use will upset my endo.

A day without pain.

eff you endo!