I just need to do some venting. Today is my birthday and I have been pretty much ignoring the phone because I don't want to pretend that I am in a good mood. There is this expectation on "special" days to be grateful, but frankly I'm a little bitter about life right now. I am grateful for all the people that love me, but sometimes it's too much to try and be okay for them. My miscarriage happened a couple of weeks ago now, but I am feeling much more sad than I did at first. I am crying almost constantly and eating like all the food in the world is going to disappear if I don't get to it first. Anyway, I am just having a really bad day, and I needed to put it out there to people that don't have an emotional investment in me like my family does. Thanks for listening.
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