I want to scream and just hide from the world somewhere. i babysat from friday until sunday afternoon late. Friday night i was really sore. my sister in law who came home from catching babies at the hospital that night kept asking me if i was okay. we were watching a movie and i started to have more pain and couldnt really find a good position. Saturday i did pretty good that girl had me worn out with her and i took a nap too. does anyone else get that way just exhausted? anyways i should be asleep but hubby and i had intercourse tonight. did ok. he listened which was really good but i could tell he was frustrated with me. I kept saying not there time to move. you just to keep the sharp pains away. i dont know what it is he hit it twice tonight but it is so sharp and intense that i just feel bad. i end up pushing him off me. then its like i have some issues with our marriage. a lot more lately with all this pain. its just and this may be too much information but i need to let it out. I feel like im not pretty, i cant do anything right. he is getting so frustrated that everything is wrong. i feel lazy because i never get anything done once i start it. tomorrow i need to move the bed and vacumn under it but im dreading it. I want to cry. everytime we have intercourse either during or after i have bad pain. I tend to get stuck in places, bathroom, kitchen, hallway. lol this really is just tearing me apart. ive talked to my counselor about this but i think i may find a new one soon. she said it was my marriage and i need to really think if i want to stay with my hubby. im at a loss. i dont know what to do. my family still doesnt believe me, hubby i showed him my bruising, it was just like i thought he freaked. but also asked me if i did it. why would i do that? Uggh there are not enough pillows on this bed. my hips, back, pelvic area all hurt so much. im going to try to sleep. i hope everyone has less pain today. i go back to my dr in May but i just dont know how to deal with all this pain now.
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