Rant!!! Really need your prayers right now....very angry please excuse my potty mouth

So my jacka@@ State that I live in has denied my healthcare coverage for the past 3 years since I've moved back here and I can't afford it out of pocket. Even with the new Obama laws they still refuse to let people on it. (our governor disagrees with any type of welfare and says this socialized healthcare will just teach people to be sick and that its o.k to get sick.) So Obama sent a ton of money to my state last month so people could get medicare/medicaid etc and gov. A@@hat sent it all back and told him that no one in our state needed it and that he needs to mind his own business he knows whats best for our state. He has also hired a company and is paying them 1.5 million to help him find more ways to keep the sick off of any state aided healthcare. (Just an FYI not just people like me but the elderly, disabled, children and pregnant women are going without healthcare because of this dick)

I don't know what to do, I can't do this anymore. I would give anything to win the powerball so I can get out of this crap hole of a state and move back to where I came from!!!!

The real kicker is this. I was on Ortho Micronor and it was helping I had so many more good days then bad. I wasn't aware of it but I was on a state RX program that helped with drug coverage. (however again this is also a bit a@@ backwards to me, how do you think i'm going to be able to get drugs when I have no health ins to go to a doc to get drugs in the first place?)

So on monday I call my pharm to get my refill and they said that the RX program will no longer cover any form of bc pills regardless of what they are for. (another one of gov a@@hats brilliant ideas to save our state money, women don't need birthcontrol for any reason)

So my ortho out of pocket is 102 dollar per month now and I can't get my next refill till monday when I get paid and I'll be 5 days behind on it. It also means that I have to cut way back on groceries this week and not get any gas in the car. I"ve checked with both my pcp and gyno and neither have any free samples I can have to tide me over.

I'm just so angry that some jacka@@ in government thinks he can rule my uterus and tell me what I can and can't do with it, they also did this to me when I had stage 4 cancer. They revoked my healthcare in the middle of my chemo treatments and I had to move out of state to get covered and finish my treatments. There is nothing worse then your state telling you that your a worthless POS and you don't deserve to live so just go in a corner and die. I'm tired of being ridiculed because of my financial and health situations. Seriously gov A@@Hat do you really think that I would ask for this??? Do you think I enjoy this?

But now I'm so scared. My endo has had a history of growing back so fast and I'm not sure what this one week wait will do. I want to cry, I did ask and there are no exceptions for bc even if its a medical issue and the 3 years that I've been back here I still have not been able to get my yearly screenings for my cancer because of all this...

I just don't know what to do anymore..... :( I'm so angry with these people for doing this to me, but if I'm the one to lash out at them then I'm the one who's the problem, I'm the one who deserves to be punished.

I'm so tired of living like this!!!