I'm 19 years old. I had emergency surgery two months ago because my doctor thought my appendix was rupturing. I woke up later to find out it was chronic pelvic pain due to Endometriosis, (which I had never heard of.) I was told by my doctor that the pain would most likely never go away until I had a hysterectomy. I was also told that there may be a chance that I would not be able to have kids. I cried for days.

I never thought something like this could affect me so much in my life. I'm barely 19 years old. I feel like something's wrong with me and that I might not be able to do the one thing that all women are created to do. I'll most likely never have a surprise pregnancy like some of my older friends. And worst of all, I'm reminded of it every day because of the pain. I work as a waitress and I'm ashamed at the fact that because of the pain I sometimes move slower than some of the older women that work there.

I do not mean to come off as depressing or helpless but it's turned my world upside down. I often think I'm too young to be dealing with this and am terrified at the fact that one day I will have to tell my significant other that I may be incapable of creating a family of my own.. I joined this site for advice, help, and support. Seems as if no one understands. I'm thankful my situation isn't worse. I just need help to become as strong as some of the other women who have also shared their experiences. A lot of people my age are having fun partying and living life to the fullest. Being sober at parties comes off as being lame but I know alcohol can have an affect on endometriosis and increase infertility. But other people my age don't see or don't know anything about endometriosis and honestly I don't want them to know. I'm embarrassed and in pain. I just want to know it gets easier..