Endometriosis Support Group
Endometriosis is a common medical condition where the tissue lining the uterus is found outside of the uterus, typically affecting other organs in the pelvis. The condition can lead to serious health problems, primarily pain and infertility. A major symptom of endometriosis is pain, mostly in the lower abdomen, lower back, and pelvic area.
I need help. hubby and i had a BIG fight tonight. he said i was lazy. I just get tired so easy. today I went to lunch at applebees only it hurt to sit so i thought ok get to hospital pay bill go home. Well paying the bill took longer than expected so i was crying by the time i got to see her plus probably flushed since i get so hot. but anyways since i refused to go to the er like she wanted me too. i called my dr. i go back on tuesday hubby doesnt know yet. debating telling him. He thinks im faking so he has to do all the work. he wants me to get a job and yes it may help if i had one to get out of the house you know. but i dont think im ready. i can get up at 930 do normal stuff around the house have to take breaks then by 1230-1 i need a nap. but i took a hour long bath when i got home this afternoon plus a percocet. was totally zonked. but i wanted to help hubby clean. i did two loads of laundry. but when i dropped a sock out of a basket. he flipped told me it was now dirty. telling me how lazy i was. i left. i couldnt deal with it. i let him cool off then came home. still sleeping in separate beds. i feel like i need to explain this to him but i dont know how.
i want him to go to the dr with me but he is afraid of pregnant women. they may go into labor i guess at any second lol. I keep telling him im trying i have turned in 4 apps already for jobs. no calls yet. prolly cause they seen the funny look on my face when im in pain. lol I know he is frustrated with his job and so many other things going on financially for him. I know my pain is getting old too. for both of us but i think he thinks i like being this way. i just dont know how to get him to understand that it really does hurt. walking, sitting, stress. i just cant handle it. Im not sleeping either havent for months now. Mostly because i tend to sleep on my tummy so yeah that hurts. I just want him to be there for me, I want hugs. He is getting to be stay away.
i told him i need a night to myself and we would talk tomorrow. My problem is i like to make everyone happy so i feel like im letting him down all the time.
i want him to go to the dr with me but he is afraid of pregnant women. they may go into labor i guess at any second lol. I keep telling him im trying i have turned in 4 apps already for jobs. no calls yet. prolly cause they seen the funny look on my face when im in pain. lol I know he is frustrated with his job and so many other things going on financially for him. I know my pain is getting old too. for both of us but i think he thinks i like being this way. i just dont know how to get him to understand that it really does hurt. walking, sitting, stress. i just cant handle it. Im not sleeping either havent for months now. Mostly because i tend to sleep on my tummy so yeah that hurts. I just want him to be there for me, I want hugs. He is getting to be stay away.
i told him i need a night to myself and we would talk tomorrow. My problem is i like to make everyone happy so i feel like im letting him down all the time.
I dont want to become dependent on my percocet but my dr told me to take them until i see him on tuesday and he can check things out.
Hubby actually helped me some today. We tried to have intercourse again today and to be honest, I dont think he realizes it but I was having such bad pain an hour earlier before we got it on that I took my pain meds. during I had pain not as much but I dealt with it. faked it told him it was great. this is horrible I know but he talked a lot during of is this a good position? how does it feel? Is it too much? Im so happy that he is trying. the only thing we dont talk about is the fact that im still having pain. I told him he owes me a good massage. so tonight we watched some old reruns of game shows laid in bed and he rubbed my back and thighs for me. he even found the heating pad since my laptop is putting on way too much pressure on my tummy.
The only thing is when I started having pain after intercourse and i started squirming even with the heating pad he went "what is wrong with you" Instead of giving him the you must be an idiot look because this has been the same thing for 4 months now. I just said I need a hug. I only got one today. :P
I hate lying to him. he knows I hurt but his way of fixing it is take your pain meds. I cant help you if you wont help yourself. My whole problem is im scared of taking these. i dont want to be dependent. Im scared that my brain will send pain signals even though im not really in pain if that makes since. but ive been told that is what happens. plus im so little only 78 pounds right now . dont tell hubby he will flip. he knows i have lost weight just not how much. Im normally 89. but anyways he is the one always giving me a pain med. If I am crying after intercourse he leaves comes back with one and a glass of water. I really need to find something else that helps. Him giving me a back rub seems to help when it is not too bad so i may have to squeeze some more of those out of him later.
He says he didnt know i wasnt able to go to sleep until 4 in the morning. I havent been on a normal sleep schedule since the hospital. they wake you up a 4 and during the night so i just got used to it. he told me to take a sleeping pill tonight. uum yea bad idea. my pain isnt any better but im in better spirits today. when i am diagnosed with whatever is wrong i will get all the info i can for him. I am even planning on asking the dr how i can explain this to hubby in the meantime. I probably wont have another lap for a while.