I'd like to tell my story thus far, in hopes someone can offer words of encouragement.
I'm a 30 year old mother of one. I noticed after my c-section a few years ago my periods became increasingly painful. I left work to raise my son, and it's a good thing I did. Don't know how I'd be able to function daily not being able to stay at home. A day or two before my cycle I get extremely bloated and nauseous. Then the pain starts. Most notably on my left side. It feels as if my ovary is trying to pull away from my abdominal wall. I can barely walk, let alone stand up straight. Cannot find a comfortable position to sit or lie down in, and sleep never comes, for days.
Last year I finally went to see A gyno. Who immediately wanted me on birth control. I told her it was not what I wanted, as we may want to add to our family soon. I was sent for an ultrasound, and given a prescription for anti inflamitories. Ultra sound turned up nothing, but the pills worked wonders (till they wore off). We could barely afford the $500 ultrasound. I guess the next step is exploratory surgery.
Gyno and family seem to be skeptical. Like this is all normal. They've even got me believing that it's all in my head. But it's not normal to lie awake at night wishing to pass out from pain, is it? My sex life is also non existent as it can be quite tender in the same spot afterwards.
I'm very scared that I will be in pain all my life. If we do find a way to take the next step, what if they find nothing? I feel so terribly alone, and ignored.
My relationship of three years hit an apex last Saturday with me being punched in the face, binded, head stuffed in a bag and suffocated, to being strangled with a belt. I lost consciousness and came to with blood pouring from my nose. I was locked in a closet most of the day because he thought I would go to the police-again- he fractured my face 2 months ago and I stupidly was attempting to work...
does anyone else experience tingling or pressure in their head when they are having a panic attack. It sends my attacks into overdrive. I will calm down feel the pressure or tingling and start to panic again. my panic attacks stem from me thinking im dying of type of brain anyruesum. I dont know how to control it and it scares the hell out of me.