I am really guilty of setting high expectations and then becoming upset when those expectations aren't met. This weekend my husband and I visited my son's college town to attend a football game and spend time with him. First of all, I was upset because I hadn't heard from him since Wednesday of last week, then when we arrived my husband texted him several times and he didn't respond. Now I am worried that something is wrong...Anyway he finally responded while we were at the game. (He was also there but seated in the student section.) What essentially happened was we got to spend a total of 1 and 1/2 hours with him to have dinner! I was practically in tears the whole time...trying to be normal....all the while my heart is being ripped out. It's almost better not seeing him...I go about my business and don't feel too bad. I was thinking about this all day yesterday and today and wondered will I ever stop grieving? Grieving the kind of relationship we once had? How can I change my attitude toward my son that my feelings aren't constantly hurt? He really is a good, caring person. He was extremely busy with school work/projects. He actually went back to his apartment to do school work on a Saturday night! My husband just says "Let it go". Easier said than done! Is there something wrong with me? Glad I have a place to vent where people understand.
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