I "recovered" (yeah right) and put on a massive amount of weight in just under two months. Not sure if I can mention numbers, but not ED terms of weight, but an actual normal thinking way of gaining a lot. (If that makes sense) I haven't normally eaten in years. It's either restrict or b/p and over those two months, I came the closest to normal, sometimes with binges. But now, I'm relapsing, and I'm freaking about the extra weight. How do I do this without falling back into anorexia or bulimia? I'm already starting up old habits and I want to get better before it gets worse again. So, how can I lose the weight or not freak out about how much I weigh? Anything would be helpful, I'm ready to just give up all over again..