Oh, Hon...I relate to your anxiety. But you have to remind yourself that feeling anxious is only a feeling. And you can override if with logical thinking -- ask yourself: Will you really be gaining weight from eating just 500 cal-worth of food a day? (even if you did gain a pound of two, it's probably just water weight -- and is it really the end of the world? Do you think people would notice it? Do you think people would love you less before you have gained weight?)

I believe you've made a positive step towards the right direction by trying out food which you wouldn't normally eat. Being less restrictive and stringent on your eating can really help to make life more enjoyable -- congratulate yourself!

I can relate to this totally. Only its not you thats screaming its ED because you just kicked back. I'm just living in hope these feelings can't last forever. Remember whatever we tell ourselves 500cals is not excessive its not even normal. Keep trying step by step.

Can I give you an example of weight gain, my daughter has been on 2500 cals a day for the last 10 days and she only gained .4 last week, you will not gain and cannot gain anything on 500, you need 1600 a day to just function and at least 2200 for gain of any kind, despite your feelings I am afraid facts win every time xxxxx

I understand, but as the others say you can't gain on 500 cals. It's ED talking nonsense to you. I have had the same. I normally have porridge for breakfast but had a croissant and a muffin today (long story) and just had a bowl of soup and feel like a failure and like i have eaten excessively even though i know it's not the case, it's a mental battle every day.

I just feel like there's no way I could eat that many calories a day! If I was to eat 800 a day I think I'd put tonnes on! I just can't eat the normal amount everyone else does. I've had around 300-400 cals every day and now this.

I just feel like crying right now. I fucked up again!

x-Bliss-x

You can never win a fight against yourself, you need another perspective. "A thought is only TEMPORARY, A feeling is just the same, just an ebb and flow in and out of your mind. Love Fane x

Actually, when a person's body is used to consuming X amount of calories and then that person abruptly decreases that amount of calories, their metabolism slows down significantly and becomes accustomed once again to surviving off the decreased X amount. In order to survive off of a higher amount of calories, it must be a gradual thing, and you will gain a small amount of weight at first, but it most definitely will come back off as water weight once your body becomes accustomed once again to the new X amount.

Bliss, I am so proud of you for challenging yourself to the experiences you've had today. That is a WONDERFUL accomplishment. Of course you are feeling scared now because by challenging yourself you have had to step out of your comfort zone. That took a lot of strength for you to do which is why it is such a wonderful progression!

I hope that you keep your mind open to these ideas, as I feel that despite your fear, you are heading on the right track to getting to be and to feel better. =)

a calorie is a calorie is a calorie no matter where it comes from...500 cals is just 500 cals no matter if u got them from an artic roll or from a bushel of iceberg lettuce....just remember....NOBODY gains weight on 500 calories! so DO NOT worry about this anymore!