my mom has a friend that came over from canada. shes very nice! always saying im pretty and stuff and saying she really loves me and shes gonna take me home. . shes mad cool. but when i first got home from my cousns house after eating like a fiend after being intoxicated 2/3 days i spent there. so i come back home and meet my moms friend for the first time ....i go to bed after cuz it was late and in the morning thats when i got triggered.

i normally dont eat first thing in the morning..never have. nd so i say goodmorning to everyone and she was like in french though so in english she said
"phanie, theyre are haitian patties, go eat" and i was like
"ill eat later" and she was like
"u know its not good for ur stomach to be empty" and before i could tell her that i know and that i dont eat first thing in the morning, my mom jumps in and in her teasing voice was like oh shes anorexic, with her thick accent , she doesnt eat, i tell her everyday but she doesnt care. in my head i was like why are u telling my business to someone i donnt know ? im not even anorexic the only thhing my psych and therapist said was it was ednos.

after all of that i stepped on the scale. and saw i gained a few pounds and so that annoyed me and this morning i stepped on the scale and i gained another pound. honestly im not eating until i drop that weight and a few more then ill calm down....

but i went to say goodmorning and my moms friend was like theirs haitian soup..and i said im gonna eat later and she was like when 4 o clock? and she giggled and she wa slike why dont u eat ice like u always do...she wasnt mean or anything but i felt insulted and more motive to restrict ...ughhh:(((