Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I am not sure if i have an eating disorder or not, but I think I might. Any time I look I the mirror, all I see is Fat, fat, fat, yet people are always saying I am stick thin and that I need to eat a cheeseburger or something. I also don't eat as much as a lot of people, but I purposefully eat slowly so that people think I ate more food than I actually do. I also try to be extremely active and love working out every chance I get. When I brought it up to my mom, she just said "Don't call yourself fat! That's just selfish and it makes people heavier than you feel bad!". It made me feel like crap so u don't bring it up around her anymore, and I just don't know what to do about it. I think I might have Anorexia. Any advice?
I am also sorry you are struggling right now with food and your body image. These are issues that are usually present with ED's, but I am not a doctor and can't say if you have one or not. But it is clear you are struggling regardless if you have a diagnosable ED or not.
I do not agree with your mother that when you call yourself fat it is selfish or that it makes people heavier than you feel bad. You feel the way you feel and you should be able to express your feelings without being told you are selfish - you are NOT selfish. If someone heavier than you feels bad about their own weight it has nothing to do with you or your weight - it is their issue, not yours. I wonder if your mother is the one who feels bad about her own weight when you say how you feel?
Is there another adult in your life you can turn to for help? Another relative you trust or even a friends parent? When you return to school in the Fall please do talk to a counselor if you have not found anyone else to talk to. Not eating really messes with your body and the sooner you heal the ED the better your life will be. Please do tell someone you trust and ask for help. ((Hugs))