I completely understand. I always refuse meds that cause weight gain. But I was never in the position to where there wasn't a different medication I could take. Have you asked if that is a possibility? I hope you can fight the urge to cut.

yeah ive always been able to avoid it and ask for weight neutral meds but after the attempt..the docs and my psychiatrist decided that id be on depakote and wen i asked they told me it wouldnt make me gain weight....as long as i continure restricting i wont cut...i just told my mom the way i feel and she said to decrease my meds slowly not just stop and she said that she was gonna go grocery shopping and is gonna buy stuff so i can go on a diet...im a lilttle hopeful...but misery is completely taking over

Itzjustme:

I totally understand where you are coming from. I have been overweight all of my life and loss quite abit, and then I ended up gaining 80lbs back. I was MORTIFIED to say the least. Like you, my meds increased my appetite and I just piled on the weight, I stopped caring and began to eat, which didn't help my situation. I would never tell you to quit taking your meds, but your mom is right. NEVER just stop taking the meds abruptly, you must wean yourself slowly.

Additionally, any medication for seizures (depakote) or antidepressants medication can make you gain weight. I was ask my doctor before I change a med if this will make me gain weight. I know that gaining will trigger other behaviors and I don't want to cut, burn, binge or purge. Additionally, I am taking Prozac (flouxetine) and it doens't make you gain weight and works really well. Additionally, my doctor put me on Toppamax to decrease binge eating. You should check with your PCP to see if these meds are right with you.

Hang in there sweetie, things will get better. By the way, about the weight gain--last year I got really serious about my health (since I am getting older and I didn't want to DIE) and started seeing a nutritionist to get meal plans and I started walking/exercising every chance I could get. I have now dropped 65lbs and plan on losing more.

Please keep us posted and I am here if you want to talk. :)

My heart hurts for you. I wish I had some words of wisdom that could make things better. You are not alone! We are all here for you and we need you too. Let's get better together.

Please talk to your doctor about decreasing your meds. Don't do it on your own. I understand about weight gains from medications. I gained 60 pounds in 3 months, and I was starving myself.

I can relate to suicide because of weight gain. But when I stop taking the prescribed dose of medications I became more suicidal and then was hospitalized for almost 3 and half months (not straight through 3 weeks at a time and then was out a week- repeated many times) because I continued to be suicidal.

If you can try again asking the doctors to switch your medications. But if you had an attempt and they really think this is the best medication... Then I guess it would be to go back to getting a little more exercise in and watching what you eat. Eat healthy foods, walk an extra 15 -20 minutes a day... might help.

QueenDee: i asked my psych for topomax but she said no..that wasnt a good med for me...yeah im suppose to see a nutritionist for this whole ED thing but my dad didnt really make an effort to take me and i live with my mom now and its the same...i wanna see one. congrats on losing 65lbs! thats amazing id love to lose that muchh!

kans: the reason why i was put on depakote was because i attempted suicide (because of weight and food +other things) . wen i dont take meds i get servely depressed but that was wen i lived with my dad..i live with my mom now and im sooo busy wen im here i dont even have time to think. so im gonna try to be without meds and see how i am. im gonna start walking again

Thank you bri..and thank u guys for understanding

i have never been suicidal because of it, but i get why you are uncomfortable with your body. try changing medications, and definitely talk to your treatment team about this. you can beat your ED. we're all here for you.

itzjustme,

i was put on depakote in oct 2010, and tapered myself off of it i think march or april 2011. i went from 125 lbs to 163. im here to say that i can relate and that if you do decide to go off, please taper off slowly. it can be done and it doesnt have to be as hard as some people say or that you read online. i only had mild physical withdrawal symptoms. i know you want to lose the pounds and you want to get back to your original weight, but dont rush yourself. keep in mind that it will end soon. good luck getting off of it. i hope you feel better soon.

Thank u so much for ur support

Exercise exercise exercise! Working Jo a good sweat and then having a nice shower does wonders for your mind as well as your body!

I understand what you are going through. I have always struggled with medicine and the weight gani I have from it. Few months ago I was on so much medicine that I was not even leaving my room. I was staying in the dark and if my mom came to talk to me I would yell at her. The point I am trying to make here is that the anti-depressants were not helping me, they were altering my personaltiy and making me numb or I should say a legal "drug addict". I decided one day that I was going to stop taking all the meds (there were about 21-25 pills a day). I did that but symptoms were really bad. I was so scared that I kept on crying for weeks. I still refused to take my meds. I was afraid of walking or going outside because I was sobering up slowly. I started eating nutritious food to help speed my recovery. It took me about a month and half to get rid of the symtoms. I still suffer from memory loss sometimes because I was also on Topiramate, and memory loss is one of it's side effects. But I know that I will be fine.

I am sure you will be fine but please don't do what I did with my medicine. If you don't mind I would advice you to reduce the dose and eventually go off medicine. That way you will not have crazy withdrawl symtoms that I had. Some are very hard to explain in writing.

Please talk care of yourself. This world needs you. When you are reducing your dose you can pick up a hobby, for example, walking or going to the gym. You can change you life style and it will really help you with your recovery.

I am saying all this from personal experience. And I can tell that you are strong otherwise you wouldn't be talking about it here. Take good care of yourself. We'll get better together :-)