Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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SilentTears
SilentTears

in really needing some support. For the past month or so my anorexia urges have come back super strong. My dietician asked me today, “Do you want to be thin or do you want to be healthy.” 


Honestly, I couldn’t give her the answer I know she wanted. I really really think I want my anorexic life back.


i don’t know what to do. 

Katja
Katja
Something that's helped for me is strength training. Oh my word, I love it. The secret? You gain strength and-if you want-muscle, but you don't gain fat. Your waist will actually get smaller. Another plus is muscle burns a whole lot of calories in repairing itself. Don't give up, boo. Just one step at a time, one choice at a time.
Onlythelonely
Onlythelonely
So sorry. I know how you feel. I struggled with anorexia for decades. I am happy to say I found healing and health. Please check out this sit. I think it will help you.
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searchingforbalance
searchingforbalance
That question would honestly be hard for me to answer too. Let’s think of it in a different way...do you want to spend your life trying to lose weight and make yourself smaller or do you want to be genuinely happy?

At someone’s funeral, nobody says “she weighed xx pounds” or “she had amazing abs” lol. They talk about how kind and influential the person was, their impact on others, etc. Also, can you imagine yourself at 80 years old practicing anorexic behaviors in front of your grandchildren? “Grandma’s not eating with us again...” silly things like that make me rethink why my eating disorder tempts me so much in the first place.

And I know how difficult it is. You can’t just say “well I’m done with my eating disorder so I’m recovered now!” It’s an everyday choice. Some days are harder to make the right choice than others.

Also, we often romanticize what anorexia was like in our minds...I know I do. When I’m tempted to go back, all I’m thinking about is what I looked like vs what I look like now or how “amazing” that feeling of hunger was or even the number on the scale. When in reality...I looked and felt like shit, I was cold all the time, my body was basically shutting down, the constant feeling of hunger actually wasn’t amazing, and the only reason I cared about the scale was just for control. When in reality, that search for control made me basically insane everyday lol.

I know it can be soooo tempting, but keep fighting! Recovery is always an option, just like going back to you ED is always an option. Why not try recovery for a few months and if you don’t like it, you can always go back? :)