Hi- welcome to the group. Let me start by saying: you are not a shitty daughter. This does not define you. Not at all. Not to answer a question with a question (except I am doing just that): what is triggering you or stressing you out?

Hi, you are not a shitty daughter by having a disorder. You might have shitty parents who caused you to form the disorder but that is a guess. I had a dad who was like a card carrying playboy magazine subscriber and always got the calendars every year and my mom had some health issues that basically made her TOO skinny. I learned bad eating habits and for some reason I would not eat in front of people but I am not sure why. THEN I had kids, and learned I had a heart problems requiring meds forever. Meds that made me gain weight real fast and no one believed me that it was the medicine. Then I went through several traumatic experiences and worked a traumatizing job and ended up with a problem of "emotional eating". I eat when I feel depressed and I eat when I am happy. I eat because the sun rises and because the sun sets. Yummy food seems to be able to replace anything that disappoints me..... now I am facing liver problems (cholesterol) and diabetes from my stuffing my face with junk. I love good foods too but oddly there is no drive thru for fruits and veggies.

I babbled all of the above not to turn the table for sympathy but to show you that your problems and my problems both probably come from emotional and self esteem issues and I would be happy to chat back and forth about anything that you feel the need. I certainly don't know the answer to everything but now by 50 I think I have heard such a variety that not much shocks me and I am not judgement (except to myself and my inlaws who judged me first). I hope to actually write a little journal entry after I post this so if it's there and you want to friend me and read it please do. If I can "listen" and help great, if not then I still pray and wish you the best!!!