Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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Itzjustme 11/25/2011

i havent really been active on DS for like a month...no one talks to me on here anymore and i dont have friends on here anymore:(....i miss people caring about me and i miss talking to me and im debating whether or not i shud come back on here. i havent been on here cuz it makes me depressed and more lonely that on a support group website no one talks to me:( sorry if i seem like a baby

i feel so alone with my ed...i even tried talking to a hotline counselor but they just seem so automated and im left by myself in panic and seriousky hating myself. im starting iop at the renfrew center in janurary.

im ready for treatment...my body has been through hell and i feel like crap alot and dizzy and my chest hurts alot and my heart pounds hard sometimes...i know im not erious enough but i think going into recover now rather than later or until i drop 50lbs is better for me

deleted_user 11/25/2011

Hi hun
I'm sorry if I haven't replied.I have also been struggling.I do think of you.
Do go to the clinic.I am thinking of you.

deleted_user 11/25/2011

I am SO with you on this one. I have posted many things about my trials...about how I feel...asking for forgiveness from people I don't know on here. Sometimes I wonder why I have ED what got it started...when will it end?

I don't get responses on here either. I feel like there is no support on here for me. I am also on another support for another disorder I have and I get so much advice, so much comfort...I get nothing here.

Thinking about dying slowly and quietly.

BeccBecc 11/25/2011

I want to make a very important point. If you post extremely triggering things to people then you will not get alot of responses. I know when I read them such as describing alot of behaviors or weight or any self harming thoughts I rarely respond. It's not because I don't care. I do care. I just don't know how to respond to something that triggering. It makes my mind twist. And when things concern depression or self harm I get flashbacks to my severe depression and I honestly have trouble handling it.

That's just my story and what I believe happens.

deleted_user 11/25/2011

It's hard to believe that somebody who reaches out on the board is ignored. Hynlymorning I remember answering to quite a few of your post. Sorry if it didn't help you out or you feel ignored. We are actually a pretty loving community here, so itzjustme I hope you give it another try. I'm very happy your are getting IP treatment in January. That is very courageous and could change your life forever. Until then do your best to at least not sink deeper into your ed. The better you come in the earlier you get released. Best luck to you.

Itzjustme 11/25/2011

thank you ladies. i feel better that all of u replied. i went to the er last week cuz my stomach was and still is hurting sooo bad. the doc said he felt a mass and i got an ultrasound and stuff....and he thinks the mass was stomach with my spleen and is pretty sure i have a stomach ulcer...i have to go see a gastroterologist (spelling ?)

no body takes me seriously here. ...they say i complain to much..but its not my fault everything hurts lol.

im sorry hvnlymorning that u feel ignored...ill talk to u more:) hugs

deleted_user 11/25/2011

Karrin-Yes you did and I am VERY thankful for your comments. It's because of you I reached out for the first time....almost lost my job but I reached out.

I guess it's because here lately I feel alone...like I am the ONLY one that is going through this...I am the ONLY one that has these thoughts...because no one else shares the same thoughts. Everyone is holding back because of triggers....and I get that I really do.

But if I can't talk about it...how am I going to get better?

deleted_user 11/25/2011

I know what you mean about feeling lonely and not always knowing how to reach out, or getting upset b/c others don't respond the way that you need. But remember you won't get anything if you don't ask for anything.Keep writing and asking for support.

Itzjustme 11/26/2011

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