Congratulations on your recovery! Learning how to eat "normally" doesn't just happen once you are recovered, it takes time and practice, but if you keep working at it you will get there for sure. What are your feelings towards getting rid of your old clothes?

Thank you so much for answering! I'm trying to listen to my body to tell me what it wants and to eat when I want to eat! That means seconds and snacking.
I guess the small clothes signified a sense of comfort for me. I was happy being small and described as cute and pretty. I always thought of thin as beautiful and getting rid of those clothes feels like I have failed. I have been overweight in my past and never felt beautiful. Once I started to loose weight is when I got compliments and saw myself as pretty. The thought of even putting on those pants is frankly triggering. All of my anxiety came from those pants. I got rid of them last night and just sat by myself outside and tried to calm myself and have positive self talk.

When you think "thin is beautiful", how do you feel?

When I lost weight and finally got to a size large (My goal when I was 18) I realized that I didn't have friends. So my mind thought if I was thin I would be pretty and I could get a boyfriend and friends. People would notice me. I have realized now that people noticed me regardless of my weight. They see me as me. When I was thin, I always thought I was fat. I was always cold, and wanted to loose weight. Thin meant I was pretty because I never felt pretty about myself. I was always overweight as a child. I have someone who makes me feel beautiful now and I don't want those obsessive thoughts anymore. I just want to be happy whereever my body decides to go.

It seems like you know that the thought isn't true, but it's still a deep seeded belief because you've gathered all this evidence from your past to make it seem true to you. But as you can see, people can love you and think you're beautiful even at the weight you're at now. So you also have evidence on the contrary. So how can you think about those old clothes in a new way to remind yourself that smaller doesn't equal beautiful?

I would say that those old clothes are from a me from the past, a me that was scared and afraid. She was sick and cold all the time. I want new clothes to fit the new me. The me that is a woman and that has curves now. Thank you for your help!

I love it. Your'e welcome :)

Oh, yes I get that too-"you look healthy", "you ujsed to blow away with the wind". So I'm fat now??? But that isn't what your loved ones are trying to say. Theyre saying that they can trust you to take care of yourself, and I''m sure that makes them happy.