I have had binge eating disorder my entire life. I have recently become anorexic but have binged a few times since becoming anorexic. I don't purge so I am also morbidly obese. I have lost 25 lbs since becoming anorexic and that makes me more obsessed with not eating. I know that if I eat certain foods like my favorite fatty foods I can't just eat a little, I binge. What are you going to the doctor for? Are you going to tell them about what is going on? I envy you because I have no desire to tell my doctor just yet. I am sick of being fat. I truly hope that you get better and can find some relief. Hang in there. I really understand. Write me if you want to chat.

I am currently relapsing (I was anorexic for several years) but I sometimes do what you do. I will starve and starve and then I will have to eat something and then I will eat too much (except my too much is like two pieces of pizza or something like that) I feel so terrible it just ruins my whole day.

Try doing what I used to do to make myself eat. If you are going to have chips pour them in a bowl (a small one) and only eat that bowl don't pour any more. Or pour some coke in a cup and only drink one glass then drink a few glasses of water.

I drink at least two glasses of water before I eat anything so that I will already be sort of full. I promise it will help you not binge. Good luck.

thanks guys. the last two days i have eaten nothing untill dinner. i am going to my doctor to discuss my migraines and to get a refferal for a physical therapist. my boyfriend thinks i should tell her about my ED, but i am REALLY scared about it.what do you think i should do?

I'm in the same place as you are. I am obese and have stopped eating and drinking because I feel that if I eat I will binge and then die. I told my psychiatrist and I am now getting some help through the local ED clinic. I understand the high from losing weight. I lost 12 pounds in one week and in three days another 4 pounds. I am working with the dietitian and will be seeing an ED therapist.

I guess what I'm saying is to talk to your doctor. Docs have seen it all before and will know if you need a referral. Keep in touch.

ugh where do i begin....

I understand being scared to eat. Ive been there. i also binge.. for me I have to avoid all binge food to the best of my ability. I dont do "a little" very well.

the problem is when you dont eat at all you are really more likely to binge again. I used to do this. eat all night. then when you wake you you are full most of the day until night again.

I have learned the best thing to do is to set up an eating schedule. I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner, no matter what !!!! hungry or not. this helps you stay on an even keihl. You will binge less i promise.

seeing a therapist will help. I used to be obese, no i am ony slightly overweight. its took me 3 years to get here, but i am doing so much better.

i also understand addition a whole lot better....

Here is something most don't know about me. Eating disorders are real. I think it's almost safe to say every girl has one, or at some point will have one.

The only thing that keeps me from sticking my finger down my throat is the fact I can't STAND puke. That's it. I would be bulimic if it weren't from that, and thank GOODNESS I was born to hate puke, or I'd be in serious trouble.

Partly I blame the media, which makes women believe that if you aren't a size four you're fat. I also blame the nasty people in our lives, and that could be anyone (parents, siblings, enemies, teachers, ex-boyfriends/girlfriends) anyone.

I do believe some of your migraines are being caused by you not having a healthy eating schedule. I've been there.

The first step to help you beat this is to be confident you can do it, because you can! Talking about your struggles will also help, this is why we are here for you. Also, please tell your doctor about this. If she tries blowing it off I suggest you get a new doctor pronto. You can't fix this with medicine, but there are some medicines you can use to help, like medicines that make you have less of an appetite. I don't know the medical name for them.

Anyway, this is a long read, but I want you to know you CAN beat this! We're all here for you.

I can not eat three meals a day, I just can't. I feel so terrible when I do. I ate two meals today (because I was at a church dinner and I was being watched by my boyfriends family) and I had too, but I felt so terrible. I normally eat one meal and then drink water and coffee all day long. I would rather not eat and feel less stressed than eat and feel like a nervous wreck all day.

Wow ... I;m right there with you. Scared to eat because when I do I cut myself later as punishment. I can totally relate to Nora's feelings of anxiety and stress when I do eat because I know what will come later. Most days it seems just easier to skip the eating all together.

I also suffer terribly from migraines, so I know that one well too. I've been managing to drink one of those Emergen-C drinks in water at least once a day to try and keep my minerals and vitamins up, seems to make me less shaky the next day.

Best of luck to you! Hugs,
Xena

Yeah, I have eaten half a grapefruit and half a piece of toast today and I'm not sure if I am going to eat later. I have been having these strange heart pains lately though and I am not sure what it is. I am afraid it might be my eating habits. I am going to the doctor today to see what it might be. It could be stress too though because I am stressed out most of the time. Wish me luck.

nora,
you would rather eat less than feel like a nervous wreck all day? well there is your eating disorder. fighting through the nervous wreck part (with help) is the answer....

you might be more comfortable eating less bc it is your coping mechanism. but this will kill you eventually, sometimes ding the hard things is the only way to live free....

Well, I went to the doctor, they have no idea what is wrong with me. I was so upset I came home and I ate a hamburger and now I feel like hell. I would through up but I don't have a sensitive gag reflex. I don't know what to do, I want to go work out but my doctor told me I should stop working out until I have some tests done. Ah, I am about to have a break down if I can't work out!

Nora17, I totally understand the anxiety about not working out... I don't have an answer but know that I understand your feelings. My purges are through excessive exercise and I do it usually 2 x day. Anyway, the only thing I can pass on it that I read a study that stated that those who did not workout but visualized the work out have more metabolic and muscle activity than those who did not visualize the exercise. I don't know about the validity of the study, I read it in a fitness magazine.
I'm here for you!

I'm just so upset about the whole thing. I don't know what to do. I know I am not supposed to work out but I think I am going to anyway. I won't be able to forgive myself if I don't work out. I am absolutely eating like nothing tomorrow. I feel so terrible about eating. I wanted to lose two more pounds this week and if I can't work out I won't be able too.

nora.... you could be killing yourself, whats more important???? please listen to our doctors....

That's the thing, I am not sure what is more important. I am so depressed I ate again today, I will never lose five more pounds at this rate. I want to be thin, that is important to me. If I don't work out I get anxious and I am not supposed to stress out. I'm in a catch 22. I don't think walking a few miles would hurt me.